LEARNING TO LET GO

I've had many friends in life, those who I still consider to be close to, and those who have slipped right through the net of life. The ones you think about when you see a Facebook post telling the world they're newly engaged or moved in with their partner, to which you make the effort to congratulate them by having a light catch-up - don't roll your eyes at me,

I KNOW

you've done this before! It sounds savage, being so honest about it, but I think I've finally become a person that doesn't want to hold on to old '

friendships

', because what's the point when you've moved on and so have they? I think you get to a certain age and it suddenly hits you, '

who are my true friends?

', you start to eliminate the people you no longer want to spend your free time with and focus on the ones you do. When you become an adult you don't have a lot of time for socializing like you did in school, it's a whole different ball game now.

In school you'd spend five days a week with 20 or more pupils, learning everything about them and who they are, then forming special connections with a selected handful. You were able to hang out after school, walk home together and play GTA non-stop until mum said it was dinner time. Now, I find it hard to switch on my XBOX for anything but catch-up TV in the background of a working situation,

on my own

. You'd be able to have fun

all day

on the weekends and be nothing but totally free, I'd head to the beach with a few of my friends, sitting in the sand dunes for hours listening to The Killers on repeat until it was finally time to get fish and chips, drag that on for a bit and wait for a call from my mum to tell me dinners at 7pm, not what I wanted after stuffing my gullet full on fried goods. But that was my early teenage years, nearly total freedom and no adult responsibilities. Friendship isn't an adult job, it's something we cherish and adore, but when you out grow your teens you start to wonder if you'll ever keep in touch with the people you had these memories with, or if they'd forget all about you once they'd moved off to new places. This was me, picture the scene... Just out of college, not wanting to spend another minute of my time studying, but watching all of my friends apply for University, getting in and leaving me on my own. It was a lonely time but one that certainly grew me as a person.

What else was there to do but think?

My parents tell me it gets harder, your best friends form new lives, get married, have a baby and then you only ever see them for the celebration of a new life in

their

life, another person to take them away from you. It all sounds incredibly selfish and very doom and gloom, but it's the cold hard truth. You grow up, learn to let go and live your life as is, with a close knit group of friends while the rest is history. It's funny how we think our school friends will be best friends forever, we look towards the future and imagine living together, holidaying in a hot country and being each others Maid of Honor. That was all I wanted when I was fifteen, but now it's a very distant memory. We all grow up and most importantly,

we change

, more often then we think. I've grown to love change and enjoy new possibilities when they arrive, this included friendship. The past year I've made some great new friends, and I hope these stick. I'm 24 this year and I want to make all the time in the world for the best friends I have today, and learn to say goodbye the ones that have left my life for good. I'm embracing the new and not spending too much time thinking about the old, as I think reflecting on the past can be dangerous. That's not to say I regret or don't miss my old pals, I very much do. But it's also nice to remember those times for what they are and leave it at that.

I'm a dreamer

, I often go into a world of my own and think about my life all those years ago, while looking forward to new beginnings. New friends come and they go, but I'll be embracing every one that comes my way and treasuring it for what it is, whether it's here for the long run or the short. I think it's good to enjoy it and if it loses it spark, that's OK too, it's still a memory.

I've said farewell to 'BFF'S' and made new ones, and I don't regret anything because some people just aren't for me. Life throws obstacles at you and situations don't work out the way you think they will. Over the New Year period a lot of people were talking about making a conscious effort to get rid of toxic people, the ones that put you down and don't make your life enjoyable. This is a good way of thinking, who need's a bad friend in their life when they have others anyway? And if not, will be sure to make some a long the way. It's best not to get caught up in these things and think about yourself, because if there is one thing I've learnt in my (

almost

) 24 years of life, it's that we need to focus on ourselves more often. We don't need negativity surrounding us when life is hard as is, it's all about making it  as much as a positive experience as humanly possible.

I love everyone in my life right now, and I'm so excited to meet new people and see what the rest of my young adult life has in store for me. Now's the time when I'll be meeting the most inspiring and incredible people, and I couldn't be more ready for it. I've released my sadness about losing touch with old friends and keep reminding myself that the best is still yet to come...

WHAT I WORE

SHIRT -

WASITE VINTAGE*

FLARES -

TOPSHOP

HAT - H&M 

JEWELERY -

BLOODY MARY METAL

& VINTAGE

I'M WITH THE BAND

The main idea of this weeks post was to bring you images from the beach and the beauty of nature, but like I mentioned in my

previous post

, it was utterly freezing and couldn't bare shooting every single piece in these climates. That being said though it seemed to be for the best, and a couple of the vintage pieces hand picked by

Sarah

from

Waiste Vintage

were made to be worn indoors surrounded by retro furnishings and a guitar or two. I decided to get warm and get back to it by shooting a few more photo sets in my boyfriends family home, which happens to be swimming with old school items that made for the perfect backdrop.

I've always enjoyed the idea of a sweater vest but never found one I'd commit to wearing, as sometimes they can be a little dorky and a bit

too

grandpa influenced.

Waiste Vintage

have pulled through with this one having sourced the most glorious rainbow stripe knit which makes it a very cool version of the not so cool sleeveless jumper. This ones also got a sister, so just you wait till you see the other colour way. It's a vintage dead stock item so they're one of a kind, and certainly not something you'll find these days.

You've got to love vintage!

You can't dress like a retro babe and not wear a pair of flares,

agreed?

My boyfriend decided to tell me I look mumsy in this specific pair, but that wont stop me from donning my favourite jeans whenever I please. Let's just say he doesn't appreciate retro things as much as me,

bummer

, I've finally found a fault in my perfect other half...

Anyway, I'm a total sucker for a pair of extra flared jeans no matter how much I look like my mother (

I would want to look liker her any day, to be honest

). These ones were bought vintage too, not from

Waiste

but from a little charity shop in Bristol. There's something unique about wearing an outfit that's nearly all been bought second hand, and I'm yet to find a pair of flares that fit me as good as these do -

my flat arse actually looks peachy!

I've done my favourite double denim trick with my jeans and baker boy, which by the way is the ultimate accessory to nail the seventies trend! I've also clashed some pattern with my snake print boots to really top off the outfit. I was going for a '

I'm With the Band

' look, a look you'd think I'd of nailed by now considering I'm surrounded by musicians fairly often.

This photo set was inspired by the back stage shots of musicians and their friends on tour by

Neal Preston

, a man whose work I have adored since I was a teenager. His back stage shots of Jimmy Page and Stevie Nicks are photographs that have stayed with me for years, so I took a little inspiration from him and made my own by using more colour and less musicians.

WHAT I WORE

VEST -

WAISTE VINTAGE*

JEANS - VINTAGE 

BOOTS - TOPSHOP 

HAT - TK MAXX 

NECKLACE -

JULY CHILD*

BURN YOUR BRA

I've been lucky enough to work with some brands that I really love recently, I'm so stoked to be able to create content with people and brands I adore. Making images and styling is my favourite thing to do, so being able to do this on the regular is quite special to me, you could say that I'm currently on cloud 9 about it. To celebrate this I've taken a trip down nostalgia lane and gone totally retro for a series of images I'll be sharing for the next couple of weeks,

and

as I'm quite proud of them I will undoubtedly be plastering them everywhere... To help with this I've teamed up with

Waiste Vintage

, who supplied me with all of the throw-back pieces I could dream of. The whole thing was a trip back to the seventies (

I obviously wasn't around in this era, but having a mother who lives for it and endless icons from said time, I think I know a little bit about it?

) and they might just be my favourite shoots to date, what with it being my all time favourite era I just had to take it to the extreme and go full on with it! Prepare for my blog to take a trip back to the time of psychedelic prints, statement accessories and of course a little bit of the '

burn the bra

' movement with this first post. Yeah, I'm embracing these phenomenal tan lines BTW...

When I think of the seventies I think of making statements and being loud and proud with everything from feminism to clothing, so I wanted to mix both with this outfit. I've nailed it with the

perfect slogan t-shirt

from

Nasty Gal

that was made to be worn with a seriously retro get-up. Of course, women did not actually burn their bra's in the late sixties and early seventies, but the myth of it all made for a powerful slogan for journalists and critic's, which later become great for printing onto clothing. Woman simply put their undies in the bin for a protest on the modern day beauty culture of valuing women for their looks, rather than their true being. It was a revolutionary act and put weight on unrealistic beauty expectations and standards. So to me, this piece needed to be worn for my throw-back shoot as it was a huge political movement from the era and one I stand with, it also makes for a pretty cute shirt too...

To help with making a statement I've got these beautiful flower power trousers from

Waiste Vintage

that have totally stolen my heart. They would be perfect for warm summers but also far too perfect to be kept away in winter. I braved it with these and forgot about sweet warmth for a while by embracing them for what they are, a pretty pair of kick flare linens -

my body is shivering just thinking about how freezing it was shooting these! 

The whole thing was worth the hours of goose-bumps afterwards, as I think me and my partner in creative crime (

that's you, Harry

) did good considering the zero degree temperatures and sudden down pours of rain. No matter what the weather I wanted these images to come across like they've been shot in the Californian sun.

The entire theme of these upcoming shoots means so much to me, I'm practically bursting I'm that excited to share them all with you.

So

, even though it's basically Baltic outside, I'm going to be sending us to warmer climes and chilled out scenes for the next few weeks,

enjoy!

WHAT I WORE

TOP -

NASTY GAL

TROUSERS - WAISTE VINTAGE*