STARMAN | 12.01.16

After a day of reflecting I still feel heart broken, I always will. In the words of Suzanne Moore - 'My David Bowie, alive forever'. Bowie was a man of many talents and could do no wrong in my eyes, he is an idol to so many of us and even writing this I feel completely numb. For me Bowie was more than just the music, he was an icon that I looked up to for inspiration and guidance. I learnt to accept people for who they are no matter how colourful and flamboyant they may be. We are all special and unique no matter what clothes we wear or who we love. We can be whoever we want to be, Bowie taught me that.

I grew up with his music so of course one of my favourite songs has to be a Bowie record - Rock'n'Roll Suicide to be exact. I also remember the joy on my face when I got given my first Bowie record, hearing Heroes spinning around on vinyl already gave me shivers so imagine what it's going to do to me now. Some songs can make you feel a certain way and there's something about so many of his that make me feel funny inside. There's that classic Lou Reed song Satellite of Love that features Bowie on the backing vocals which is another top song of mine, maybe subconsciously because of him I don't know but that song will now mean even more to me. I feel fifteen again whenever I play that track as I had a mad The Velvet Underground phase back then and remembering his vocals gracing it makes the memory even more sweet.

I keep thinking about how people we don't know on a truly personal level can effect us so much. I go on and on about my love for Jagger and Richards that I just can't fathom the thought of them passing. I mean, I get worked up at the thought of Harrison Ford dying on the weekly and I don't even know these men! But I actually think it's pretty amazing that someone can be loved so much that if they're going through a tough time, we would be to. I will be a complete and utter mess when the idols in my life pass because these men have moulded me into the woman I am today, most of my likes stem back to my icons like the way I dress and the music I choose to listen to. I have grow up with their influences in my life and at the age of twenty one I still envy them as much as I did when I was a kid.

His last album feels like a goodbye now, listening back to the lyrics makes me feel stupid that I didn't figure out something was wrong sooner. Selfishly though I want to remember him as the light and soul he was and so tonight I will be swooshing about to Let's Dance in my silver booties as a tribute to Ziggy Stardust. You are my hero and you've shown me that we can be heroes too.