I’ve written about music so much, shared playlists and referenced a heck of a lot of musicians when talking style. But today I wanted to really get into music, strip it down on a truly personal level. When I think about my favourite song, I get emotional. Whether it’s a feeling of pure joy or an influx of sadness, I feel something that is so powerful it can be hard to handle. We’ve all had those moments where it’s felt like a scene from an indie flick, sitting in the passenger seat of a car, window down and a summer hit blasting out the windows OR walking at night in the pouring rain after a bad day, and there’s that one song that makes you feel incredibly sad but somehow helps in the end. Music is a powerful thing, and it gives me joy every single day of my life. If I’m feeling blue, I crack on an album and forget all about it. It really is one of life’s greatest gifts. I wanted to talk about my life-long influences and passions, and I hope all you music lovers out there will feel where I’m coming from with this special post.
It would be mad of me to start this love letter to music with anything other than The Rolling Stones. They are my biggest love in life, not a day goes by where I don’t play at least one song from their huge discography of music. This year I lived my dream of seeing the legendary foursome live, and to make it even more special I got to witness it with my mother. I will always appreciate other people in my life for sharing their music choices with me, because who knows if I’d be as in love with these musicians if I wasn’t brought up surrounded by them. I was raised on rock and roll, I heard my father listen to Some Girls, playing those ten incredible songs on repeat on weekends in between the sounds of Fleetwood Mac and Roxette. I learnt from this, gradually buying the CD’s and making my own mixtapes, playing it on my Walkman so much that I’d have to burn a new disc every other week. I was obsessed. There was no stopping me, since I was a little kid to the twenty-something year old I am now, I still think The Rolling Stones are the best band to ever come into my life. It’s not just the music that inspired the woman I am today, it’s the icons that make the band who they are for me. Yes, the music they’ve made is extraordinary, revolutionary, it changed the rock and roll world and made it what it is today. But without a front man like Mick Jagger or a drummer like Charlie Watts, I don’t think I’d of held on to them for as long as I have. I would watch the music videos and think how cool these men where, how flamboyant and care-free their attitude towards music and fashion is. It was iconic for a girl in her teens to be surrounded by these men, these icons that made me who I am today. I’ve often dressed like Keith and gone through dozens of skinny scarfs and Cuban heels. When I was a teenager The Rolling Stones were all I cared about, and although I adore everything about them, my love has spread on to so many other bands and musicians that I’ve become more eclectic about everything in life. These men never cared about what people thought of them, they created art and spread the joy of rock music in a decade that needed to be more open and aware. I will always have that special place in my heart for The Rolling Stones, nearly every song of theirs has a deep meaning to me, and because of them I will always appreciate the importance of being myself.
It’s time to talk about my next love, a band that come in equal with the Stones, and that’s Queen. Queen created the anthems to my childhood, the theme songs to my life. I can’t even express the love I have for them. I adore Freddie Mercury and everything he stood for, a true icon that was gone too soon. Even though so many of my favourite musicians have passed, it doesn’t mean they haven’t effected my life in so many ways. I'm often thankful for what they shared with the world, and how they have given me songs that gave me life. Queen is one of those bands that will always make me feel giddy, the vocal range that Freddie possessed speaks to me on so many levels, the shear talent him and the fellow members have is extraordinary. A lot of people shrug off what they’ve produced, thinking it’s camp, silly and all round nonsense, but for me it is everything. I think they made many of the greatest songs to ever exist. Let’s take Under Pressure, a collaboration with David Bowie that took the world by storm. All huge icons in their own rights, who came together and made my favourite song. Although this is a tune that nearly always brings a tear to my eye, it also gives me the positivity and courage I need to persist in doing what I love. These men were out-there, courageous and different, they weren’t your stereotypical rock gods, they were gay icons, gay icons that helped so many individuals over the years. I’ve said before that Bowie helped me become the open person I am today, and I think Freddie was a factor in that too. I am the open and proud woman I am today because of these icons. These men didn’t define themselves on their sexuality, they did conform to the norm and care to be judged because of their personal preferences. They made music and stayed their true selves through the artistic process. Now we have artists like Troye Sivan and Christine and the Queens who are nothing but themselves, and I like to think that they have been inspired by these icons, just like me. Today, we have the launch of new film Bohemian Rhapsody being released and my excitement levels are through the roof. I’ll be sat in the movie theatre at one minute past midnight ready for two and a half hours of pure Queen goodness. It’s funny, because nearly three years ago to this day I met Brian May. I wondered into a small pub in Camden and saw him sitting there with some friends, when he went to get a drink I went over and said hello. it was a remarkable experience and one I will cherish forever. I’ve also seen a Queen musical in which May was a part of, I’m very lucky in that way, and although I’ll never experience what it was like to be around when Freddie was, and I’ll never see the whole of Queen perform live, It’s almost like the universe is giving me everything a true Queen fan would need - the presence of one legend and a film to go with it.
Lastly I wanted to speak about a female artist, one that to this day makes my heart feel something special. Let’s go down the long and windy road of country music and embrace the queen of country herself, Shania Twain. This one is harder for me to talk about because I have a lot of personal memories attached to her music. Shania Twain was the soundtrack to my summer as a kid, me and my sister would spend the break with my Nanny and Grandad, exploring the coast and running wild. We’d always play her music in the car or in the backyard, there would be no question as to what to listen to, it would always be a country number. Ever since my beautiful Grandad passed, her songs had a new meaning for me, of course it makes me sad and think of the loss we had, but it also helps me remember the amazing times with my grandparents. I’ll always think of home when I play one of her songs, my Grandad is there passing me a portion of chips and telling me he loves us. That is what makes music so special to me, the times we associate with it and the pleasure we get. Sometimes it can be hard, but it can also be a great healer.
I’m definitely a sentimental person (if you couldn’t tell), which is why I think music touches me the way it does. As much as I do enjoy modern music and I’ve seen a lot of mind-blowing bands in recent years, I really don’t know if I’ll ever love anyone as much as these three.
The images we’ve shot alongside this post were taken from inside my apartment, where every wall is plastered in music memorabilia. Some people choose to fill their home with landscapes, pop art or family photos. For me, my house is always going to be this way because it's what will eternally make me happy.
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