HAPPINESS | 20.8.15

Today I did something a little bit mad, well, last week to be exact but today was the day it truly happened and boy do I feel good about it.
I quit my job, my job that I had only been at for three months which in work terms is very short. I started to feel down in the work place and where I was heading which made me think to myself, 'hold on, I don't need this', I'm 21 years of age and I don't need to be spending half of my time doing something I really don't want to do. It was a hard decision and a pretty ballsy one at that as I do have my own place now and bills need to be paid as well as food on the table and of course when you quit a job there is no other source of income, but that being said I just didn't care. So what if you have to scrimp and not purchase that super cute top you saw, it may kill you inside to leave it but you can do it, eventually when you pick yourself up you can go ahead and buy that top unless it's sold out and many more cute tops. It will all be worth it in the end, trust me.

I'd also like to say that it wasn't the people, the people were so welcoming and I truly feel I made friends from my time being there. I came into the city not knowing a single soul so having found a couple of friends made it all feel a little less lonely, which sort of makes it even more difficult as they are the only people I know here so no longer being somewhere where they are is a bit of a scary thought. I can't thank them enough for being so lovely to an outsider like me.

It's not that the job was that awful either it was just sometimes all a bit too much and I just didn't feel happy. I had started to progress within my role and realized that I didn't even want that to happen, it was all getting a bit much for a job I had only been in for a few months. I don't even know what I want to do for a career so I'm not about to start one for the sake of it! I also came from such a close-knit, well managed store that it all just sort of felt wrong. Some people rustled feathers, hey, maybe even I rustled a few and that's not what I want from a place I plan on spending half my week. Things just weren't right and I wasn't enjoying it, there are a few other things which made me decide to quit but they're all a bit uninteresting in comparison. The point being is that if you're unhappy you should do something about it. No matter how scared you may feel and how difficult it can be, go for it. It's so easy to get comfortable in a situation and say you're going to change time and time again but when will you act upon your unhappiness?

I'm scared, in fact I'm well and truly crapping my pants at the thought of having to start somewhere new again but I know it will all be worth it in the long run. Nothing is worth your time if you're unhappy doing it because happiness is so important and you deserve every single bit of it and in the words of Shia 'don't let your dreams be dreams, yesterday you said tomorrow so just do it!'

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